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Raspberry Girl - sneak peek

Added 2025-04-27 16:27:52 +0000 UTC

I've been super busy these past few days so I haven't had time to look over the next part of berry girl and get it up so here's a little preview!

It’s too soon.

The weight of this certainty is nearly too heavy to carry, his footsteps echoing with dread.

You’re not ready.

He’s not ready.

It’s his fault. Selfishly, he’s encouraged your co-dependence, pulled you closer and closer into deeper water where he knew you’d have trouble swimming without him. He thought he’d have more time to help you develop coping strategies, to get you settled, moved out of your apartment and into his house, but the clock ran out and now he’s leaving you alone as you try to navigate an entirely different life while straddling two living situations, without him at your side.

You’re at his tonight. It’s becoming more common, three nights turning to four, then five and sometimes even six, even letting yourself in before he gets home when he gets caught up on base. His brave fawn on stronger legs, taking self assured steps and following his lead, his guidance. Your comfort in his home, this world he’s created for you, feeds the beast inside his chest, the dark one, a monster curled around your body in the night, possessive and obsessed. It’s a perfectly balanced scale, never tipping too far in one direction, all his parts and pieces perfectly arranged for you, expertly developed in order to love you in every way you need.

He’s pleased you’re home and already in bed an hour before you’re supposed to be, curled in the middle with your kindle, your blankets and pillows arranged in the usual bird’s nest, lips parted, glasses halfway down the bridge of your nose.

They became a new rule after he realized you were getting headaches from not using them.

“What do you think is appropriate?”

“For my recipe cards?”

“For screens and your recipe cards, precious girl. Squinting and straining your eyes is what’s causing these headaches.”

“Oh right.” You nodded, and then lifted your chin. When you have rules, boundaries, you have security, confidence, support. You don’t have to think, agonize, try to step into a skin that doesn’t fit. All the things that worry you, frighten you, overwhelm you, they belong to him, they’re his to deal with. You just have to focus on the rules. “Wear my glasses when I’m looking at screens or my recipe cards. Got it.”

“Good girl.”