Sorry. I was just having a bad day. Self esteem wise. I just..
Added 2022-04-28 23:37:31 +0000 UTCSorry. I was just having a bad day. Self esteem wise. I just got out of the shower and the thought of having to say I once again go back to zero when I was not planning this on a Wednesday. I wanted to just get it overwith before it sinks in more and more that it's not happening tonight. Or probably tomorrow. And it's easier for you. I mean, so many people have left me that I cried over enough to expect it from other people. You can click out of here and find someone who wants me forgotten and replaced with them. Hell, you'll probably find the people that formally "loved" me there. This is is my life i cant just click out. Having you stay is really important to me. So I do feel I can't afford to be worse than some standard my tired body and tear filled eyes can't even compare myself too when I feel this way, even if I wanted to. To be honest, I just wanted to read and forget for a minute all the sad things I feel when I cant. And now I can't, and I feel them again.
